The dogs don’t seem to have trouble sleeping so why…oh why…can’t I!!!!
Yes…that is right…I have a lot on my mind….come on…but still…I should be able to count sheep…pop off….relax and go to dream land… I know..I could organize my office…finish the treatment to my latest creation…learn the monologue me,,5,,BIG pages.) I could work on the writing of my one woman show…for my BFF Sylvia…
I could throw out some papers I don’t need but for some reason keep. I could organize anything in the house….One always needs constant organizing sessions especially when you aren’t born with the organization gene…..I know you know what I mean.
I could get up and go to all night market and do someone shopping for things I need in the house…I could hug and kiss and love the dogs …Annie and LULU…although I think when I did it two minutes ago…I think I heard a grumble from LULU to ANNIE. Something like. ”I wish she would go to sleep. She MEANS well, but she is LOVIN us to death. So I am trying to hold back. I don’t want to annoy them! I could get up and exercise. There is a thought that will remain…a thought. OH…I could get up and dance. I LOVE to dance. I would probably get toooo excited and then never go to sleep.
Ok..let me confess already…Here it is. I’m not proud. I have to admit. But I did it. I didn’t want to. But I did. Ok. I am upset . With myself. But. I don’t have a sponsor. It just happened. For some reason I lost all control. That should never happen. Who’s the Boss. I’m THE BOSS!!! Here it is;
I don’t eat dairy. I love cheese. But. I don’t buy it for the house. I bought a huge …let’s just say BRICK of cheese…(cheddar…medium sharp}_ Now I bought it cause I had to give my dog LULU (who is 19 and a half years old ) some pills and it is easier if I put it into cheese….So..
After 200 times of TRYING to give LULU her pills in cheese I was exhausted and building up an appetite. Well…There was nothing in the house…ok. Except for a few old rice cakes…BORING!!!!…So;
I lost control of my mind! Myself!!! I must of blacked out… cause I can’t remember what happened next and then next. All I remember is …
When I got up …came to. The cheese was missing. Lulu looked hungry and I was very FULL!. I am in bed with a heating pad on my tummy and I feel sick and uncomfortable.
I’m tired…Do you think it is easy to eat the whole brick.???
I DID go through part of an outline for the one woman show. Now I have to remind myself NOT to think about sleeping cause that will make me anxious and then it will never happen.
Oh…I am finally getting tired. If I miss this sleepy time boat it will be my last chance to get on board….gotta go….gotta relax. But. I gotta hurry. I am on the boat…NIte Nite!